Life has a way of going in all kinds of directions.
Things have never really been easy. Or simple. And not always fun. But, I have to say that I am thankful for every experience, even the really bad ones. Sometimes I think that these things in life happen for a reason to us. We have a choice to what path we take from the moments that we wake in the morning, until the seconds we drift off to sleep in our beds. It seems that it is then up to us to decide what path to take and travel down. Its like those adventure books where you decide the outcome. I used to love reading those. Sometimes though, I would cheat and check both pages before choosing, just to make it to the end. The downfall to that is that in life, there is no way to read ahead to chose the better path, all you have is your faith.
Growing up was not all roses and daffodils. I am grateful for that. It has molded me into who I am today. Tulips and all. I think though that in life, there are also people who can roll with it, and those who need a little guideance. In my mind growing up, when bad things would happen, or I'd be in a situation that I wasn't preparred for, I felt alone, and that I didn't have anyone I could turn to. The one time I did, it turned into a hot mess and made no difference at all. People swept it under the rug and there is collected dust. For me though, it grew. The fear, the solidarity, the trust issues, that's when it all began I think. I emersed myself in school. That was my refuge. All the things I wanted to do, and was unable to do, I pretended that I was doing. In my room, with the door closed, I would be whatever my dream for that day was. Through all this, aloneness, I always felt, well, not alone too. I have always believed that God was there with me. I never said, "God, why can't you protect me, stop all the bad", I would just feel at peace with myself. God gave me what I needed, strength, self motivation, and love.
As I sit in my dining room this morning, watching the sun wake up, I can't help but think that this has been my life. New days, new opportunities to do new things. Holding on to negativity only holds you back. Why restrain yourself? Why set limitations on what you can do to better yourself or your family. If you feel alone, your not, today is not yesterday, so you must keep trying, keep pushing forward, and never give in or give up.
I know its not as easy as I write this, but how will you know your full potential if you don't even try. There are days that I am overwhelmed with my family. The kids are on my last nerve, there is drama with this and that, and I just want to run away and drown myself in a margarita or two. Funny thing is, I don't. Inside I am like a roller coaster ride, going every which way, on the outside I look like the person taking the ticket before you get on the ride. I know I have no choice but to take what my life has given to me, to make due, and to manage it as best as I can. Running or hiding will not take it away, facing it is what will make me stronger.
You know all those saying, what won't kill you, makes you stronger...no guts, no glory...do unto others as you would have done unto you...and so on, but have you really heard the message that's really behind those? They say..you can do it! Your better than that! Don't settle! Amazing isn't it. I just realized that myself.
So, as I finish this in the afternoon, from having a full day with my little one, and an even fuller night of homework, dinner, and the kids, I want to let you all know that you are fabulous. You can achieve your goals however large or small, and that who you are today was molded by your past and you can enhance it, change it, or embrace it, but whatever you do, there is always someone who loves you no matter what!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Count it?...Yep, almost over it..
It's a new year, 7 days in, and guess what...this calorie counting business is on my last nerve. I guess it stems from the disappointment I received from the fact that a cheap margarita cooler was 260 calories. Yes, i know, life is not about the drinking alcoholic beverages, but once in a while I enjoy some, and I don't want them to stick to my bum.
I know its good to have a calorie goal, to lose weight, to be healthy, etc. However, yesterday I found that I was eating to reach my peak intake...bad news. I ate so much, now I'm super bloated and feel like a heffalump. For real.
So, the next question, what to do now. First, I'm not gonna log after every meal..just at the end of the night. That way I don't obsess over what I ate and just focus on eating better during the day, making better choices.
I know its good to have a calorie goal, to lose weight, to be healthy, etc. However, yesterday I found that I was eating to reach my peak intake...bad news. I ate so much, now I'm super bloated and feel like a heffalump. For real.
So, the next question, what to do now. First, I'm not gonna log after every meal..just at the end of the night. That way I don't obsess over what I ate and just focus on eating better during the day, making better choices.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Painfully simple
The daily agenda today started off clear..too bad it has ended with me laying in bed, blogging with a knee covered in icy hot..on fire!
Wait..now its cooling down. Well, on with it I suppose. I had the hardest time waking this morning. Alarm clocks, kids, hubbys call, just lift myself up off the couch. Literally. I must have had some super motivation at the gym monday, because I was so sore that I was unable to move my arms, and my chest, goodness! All I can say is that I made it happen alright. A little icy hot and some breakfast later and BAM! Back in action. Was heading out to the gym when I locked the front door and remembered that my iPod was on the entertainment center, unlocked the door, went to rush in BOOM! my knee went straight into the door frame, direct hit to the knee cap...did i mention I was going to the gym to run?! yeah, I'm on a mission to run 3 miles straight without being winded by may...so far, i'm up to a mile and a quarter..guess I'll really have to work on it when I can run well again.
So, needless to say, I did the elliptical, didn't feel a thing, until i got off and tried to walk down the stairs..mmm yeah, not a good idea. Came home and I bathed in the icy hot. I think I bruised the bone. It hurts bad. The plus to all this? I love icy hot, hate the pain, love the feel. Weird. I also love the smell. So, here I am dilapitated in bed. My lips are waxed in carmex, my face has been slothed with antiaging cream, icy hot on my arms and knee, lotion on my other leg..its dry bad, foot cream caked on my feetsies, and I'm lookin pretty much like a hot mess.
Luckily, tomorrow is a new day. Not sure what it holds, I just hope I'm able to hold on. :)
So goodnight and until tomorrow...
Wait..now its cooling down. Well, on with it I suppose. I had the hardest time waking this morning. Alarm clocks, kids, hubbys call, just lift myself up off the couch. Literally. I must have had some super motivation at the gym monday, because I was so sore that I was unable to move my arms, and my chest, goodness! All I can say is that I made it happen alright. A little icy hot and some breakfast later and BAM! Back in action. Was heading out to the gym when I locked the front door and remembered that my iPod was on the entertainment center, unlocked the door, went to rush in BOOM! my knee went straight into the door frame, direct hit to the knee cap...did i mention I was going to the gym to run?! yeah, I'm on a mission to run 3 miles straight without being winded by may...so far, i'm up to a mile and a quarter..guess I'll really have to work on it when I can run well again.
So, needless to say, I did the elliptical, didn't feel a thing, until i got off and tried to walk down the stairs..mmm yeah, not a good idea. Came home and I bathed in the icy hot. I think I bruised the bone. It hurts bad. The plus to all this? I love icy hot, hate the pain, love the feel. Weird. I also love the smell. So, here I am dilapitated in bed. My lips are waxed in carmex, my face has been slothed with antiaging cream, icy hot on my arms and knee, lotion on my other leg..its dry bad, foot cream caked on my feetsies, and I'm lookin pretty much like a hot mess.
Luckily, tomorrow is a new day. Not sure what it holds, I just hope I'm able to hold on. :)
So goodnight and until tomorrow...
Monday, January 3, 2011
Bittersweet Morsels? Somthing like that...
The kids went back to school, I went back to the gym, and hubby went back to work..in Illinois..
Winter break was good. The kids were as always..the kids. Hubby was home for about 2 weeks, and it was the best 2 weeks since he left for work last year. I am thankful he has a job, but it comes with sacrifice. I know that many out there are military and deal with this more frequently and don't see their loved ones for months to years, and I know that we are blessed that we can have him come home for visits for a weekend every few weeks, but its hard still.
I don't know what the future may bring, all I know is that we will have to do what is best for our family. Whatever that is.
On the bright side, my new years goals are taking affect. Who knew tuna tasted so good with spicy mustard! ( I don't do fish or seafood, just tuna..sorta) Time off from the gym almost ended my day though. I barely had enough stamina to finish the elliptical machine. However, it will only get easier as the week progress'.
This week is focus on the house and getting things in order from christmas and the gifts that the kids got. And the laundry that I haven't done. That's what happens sometimes though. Still have to figure out dinner. Something with pork. Other than that, I'm going to bed early tonight...by 11 at the latest.
So, I just have to wait 4 weeks for my love to come home again, then do it all over a few weeks later...
Winter break was good. The kids were as always..the kids. Hubby was home for about 2 weeks, and it was the best 2 weeks since he left for work last year. I am thankful he has a job, but it comes with sacrifice. I know that many out there are military and deal with this more frequently and don't see their loved ones for months to years, and I know that we are blessed that we can have him come home for visits for a weekend every few weeks, but its hard still.
I don't know what the future may bring, all I know is that we will have to do what is best for our family. Whatever that is.
On the bright side, my new years goals are taking affect. Who knew tuna tasted so good with spicy mustard! ( I don't do fish or seafood, just tuna..sorta) Time off from the gym almost ended my day though. I barely had enough stamina to finish the elliptical machine. However, it will only get easier as the week progress'.
This week is focus on the house and getting things in order from christmas and the gifts that the kids got. And the laundry that I haven't done. That's what happens sometimes though. Still have to figure out dinner. Something with pork. Other than that, I'm going to bed early tonight...by 11 at the latest.
So, I just have to wait 4 weeks for my love to come home again, then do it all over a few weeks later...
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy New Year!!
Hello 2011!
I am excited to start this year. I started changes in December, as for me that is always the start of the new year, my birthday is right after christmas. This year I turned 31. 2011is a big year for me I think.
I have paired down my home, and besides finishing school, I have paired down on the drama that seems to fester among the people in my life. I just can't do it anymore..its that simple. Things are never going to be 100% great, but I am putting into effect this new year, not resolutions, but attainable goals.
New Years To Do's :)
1. blog
2. stay fit
3. make it happen
4. make it work
5. grow
6. look inside
7. re-evaluate
8. stay focused
9. set goals
10. FOLLOW through
11. Be a Leader!
Simple really. It's all about myself. Not about loosing 20 pounds or being "happier". Honestly, that has deterred me in the past and was not realistic. These are though. These simple expressions have more meaning to them than that of the naked eye. Attainable? Definitely!!
Here, let me elaborate for a minute:
Resolutions tend to equal failure, depression, and a sense of unfulfillment. If that's not how you see it then kudos for you, but in general, and after asking friends and family, almost all of them said they never did succeed with last years resolutions. So, case in point, resolutions are failures. And we set ourselves up for disappointment every year when we don't accomplish those. Why? Not being realistic. Reality is, I want that cupcake too! Given a choice to hit the gym or not for a day of fun, yeah, I'm skippin the gym. Be kind to those who obviously have disdain for you...easier just to hate back and say you could care less, but the point here is that you can do those things, you just have to set smaller attainable goals while still looking at the larger picture.
Setting goals tends to be the easiest thing to do, the hard part is narrowing those goals to reach. Then you reach a goal, its euphoric, and it builds confidence in yourself and what your able to do.
For me, stay fit just means that, stay fit. stay active. I don't have to hit the gym 3 times a week if I don't want to, as long as I do something active. I have 2 dogs...they need walked. I have kids, they go to the park, what do ya know, run around on the slides and chase the kids, you just got a workout in. :) Its that easy. And the best part is that by setting smaller goals inside the larger picture, you CAN accomplish more. I want to be able to run 3 miles without stopping. I can do 1 1/4 right now, but that is a mini goal for me, so, the pressure is not in my face all the time. In my face is Stay Fit...you see what I'm getting at here?
So, whether your setting goals or resolutions, make the best of this year. If your unemployed, or employed, loosing all you have or getting it back, or just sustaining, you can do it. Think BIG!! Make it happen! and most of all thanks to Tim Gunn, I'll close on "Make it Work!"
I am excited to start this year. I started changes in December, as for me that is always the start of the new year, my birthday is right after christmas. This year I turned 31. 2011is a big year for me I think.
I have paired down my home, and besides finishing school, I have paired down on the drama that seems to fester among the people in my life. I just can't do it anymore..its that simple. Things are never going to be 100% great, but I am putting into effect this new year, not resolutions, but attainable goals.
New Years To Do's :)
1. blog
2. stay fit
3. make it happen
4. make it work
5. grow
6. look inside
7. re-evaluate
8. stay focused
9. set goals
10. FOLLOW through
11. Be a Leader!
Simple really. It's all about myself. Not about loosing 20 pounds or being "happier". Honestly, that has deterred me in the past and was not realistic. These are though. These simple expressions have more meaning to them than that of the naked eye. Attainable? Definitely!!
Here, let me elaborate for a minute:
Resolutions tend to equal failure, depression, and a sense of unfulfillment. If that's not how you see it then kudos for you, but in general, and after asking friends and family, almost all of them said they never did succeed with last years resolutions. So, case in point, resolutions are failures. And we set ourselves up for disappointment every year when we don't accomplish those. Why? Not being realistic. Reality is, I want that cupcake too! Given a choice to hit the gym or not for a day of fun, yeah, I'm skippin the gym. Be kind to those who obviously have disdain for you...easier just to hate back and say you could care less, but the point here is that you can do those things, you just have to set smaller attainable goals while still looking at the larger picture.
Setting goals tends to be the easiest thing to do, the hard part is narrowing those goals to reach. Then you reach a goal, its euphoric, and it builds confidence in yourself and what your able to do.
For me, stay fit just means that, stay fit. stay active. I don't have to hit the gym 3 times a week if I don't want to, as long as I do something active. I have 2 dogs...they need walked. I have kids, they go to the park, what do ya know, run around on the slides and chase the kids, you just got a workout in. :) Its that easy. And the best part is that by setting smaller goals inside the larger picture, you CAN accomplish more. I want to be able to run 3 miles without stopping. I can do 1 1/4 right now, but that is a mini goal for me, so, the pressure is not in my face all the time. In my face is Stay Fit...you see what I'm getting at here?
So, whether your setting goals or resolutions, make the best of this year. If your unemployed, or employed, loosing all you have or getting it back, or just sustaining, you can do it. Think BIG!! Make it happen! and most of all thanks to Tim Gunn, I'll close on "Make it Work!"
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